A holistic path to joy…

Joy has often been elusive for me when it needn’t have been.

I remember vowing as a child I would never run my own business, I had seen the stress and trauma it caused my parents.  I grew up with a Kenyan mother and English fother in a middle class blended family, life was materially comfortable and loving but with the usual drama when there are large amounts of stress, alcohol and other hairaising factors in the mix.

My mother’s journey from a traumatic childhood in abject poverty, to migrating to England and transitioning from nurse to business owner has inspired and driven me as well saddling me with guilt and pressure. On the flip side, my English dad's family lacked love; the men were sensitive and my dad’s side were all alcoholics or drug addicts. My father managed to kick his battle with booze when he was 45 but sadly he died 7 years later when I was 13, I believe from stress.

As a kid, I escaped in food and isolation. Through my teens and twenties, I became somewhat of a hell raiser numbing the pain of my childhood bereavement various ways.

At 22, I broke my childhood promise not to go into business (as I saw how stress so negatively impacted my parents lives) and and took over their B and B, grafting for many years turning it into a boutique hotel and most recently in 2020, a members club. It tested my mental strength, pushing me to the edge where I tried to take my life but that dark moment became the catalyst for a new path.

Healing an eating disorder and learning meditation in 2009, leading me through a decade of holistic studies including a diploma in Yoga therapy.  I even conquered my fear of using my voice, and connected with ancient shamanic practices – finding a groove in the chaos.

My passion for wellbeing bloomed into creating bhuti, an eco wellbeing center in London and antidote to the modern western lifestyle. And yes another business…We weathered the storms of starting up, braved the challenges of COVID, and faced bankruptcy. Bhuti’s quest is to help people come home and find their joy.

I believe we all have the power to shape our lives and live a joyful life. It's about discovering what truly lights us up and clearing out the stuff that dims our spark. Joy is our birthright, no matter what curveballs life throws our way.